Over the past few weeks I have heard/read/spoken the phrase “The grass is not always greener on the other side, it’s green where you water it.”
I wish I could say I agree with this… but lately I am definitely in the mind frame that the grass IS greener on the other side, that there is always something better, or something to make me more happy, than there is right in front of me.
If anyone knows me, the last few months have been an incredibly, extremely stressful period in my life. But the good news- I am settled into my new house, and I finished my holistic nutrition program. Just waiting for the results until I can officially call myself a Registered Holistic Nutritionist. Damn that’ll be nice!
I have spent a good portion of this summer without really recognizing myself. I was coasting through life, trying to keep afloat, whilst dabbling in different nutritional and lifestyle habits that I’ve worked so hard eliminating from my life in the past.
I felt guilty for a lot of my behaviors. Ah, but then I remembered.. everyone needs to have fun, everyone needs to have balance, and lastly, to not be so hard on yourself. At the end of the day, I survived a very stressful few months. I may not be the person I expected to be at the end of this summer, but now I have an even greater foundation to work with to make changes. I know that deep down, to find myself again I need to “water the grass” where I am standing instead of constantly looking for that next hit of happiness. Whether it be food (chocolate..), alcohol, lack of self love, or even (thank god my mom doesn’t read this) swiping right again again, looking for my next “prince charming”.
If there’s one lesson I’ve learned “the relationship with yourself sets the tone for every other relationship you have.” No, I am not drowning in a sea of self-hate, but I feel I owe myself more respect, and more self-love.
The way you treat others is often a reflection of yourself. For example, when you judge others, it is about you rather than the individual, and your own insecurities and limitations. No, I am not a negative, self hatred, jaded individual. But I have work to do. I need not focus on what is happening around me, and what I can change, and instead put my energy into myself and my own surroundings. I know I am happiest and feel like myself when I have a normal exercise regime; a fridge full of greens and healthy, vibrant food; a spiritual routine; and engaging in purposeful relationships.
Honestly, right now I don’t have any of those. I have shut myself out, focused on one thing (passing my exam) and am suffering the consequences of neglecting myself. I am excited to get to work. Summer was amazing, but now it’s time to make goals and crush them. I need challenge and constant change, which is why I took the holistic program in the future.
September feels like a month for change and yet stability. Some could even say it’s the beginning of boyfriend season? Kidding, we just went over this. From decluttering to hiring a personal trainer-I always stay on track when I’m accountable to someone! Anyways, cheers to keeping things greener on your side of the highway.
So my advice? Write down what activities or behaviours make you feel level, grounded. Make a commitment everyday to work on these. There is so much research into what makes habits effective, how many days it takes etc. But make a commitment to yourself, and follow through. Don’t let there be any other option. Invest in yourself.
My commitments this week?
- Gym every day. It truly makes an INCREDIBLE difference and cannot believe I took 8 weeks off!
- Write in my gratitude journal daily. Also amazing in how it can affect your mornings.
- Strive for 8 hours of sleep daily. Enough said.
- Cut the crap-sugar, alcohol, grains, dairy. These don’t make me feel well, so why eat them?
Anyways, speaking of green, here’s my days worth of food yesterday!
Green juice: 1 celery stalk, 1 cucumber, 1 handful spinach, 1/2 juice lemon, 1 T chlorella and spirulina, BCAA’s, glutamin, turmeric, and black pepper 🙂 It’s actually blended but I add so much water it’s like a jucie!
Green Oats: 1/3 cup gluten free quick oats, 1 scoop coconut almond vega protein powder (It turns green!)
Green Salad: Cabbage, spinach, 1 roma tomato, tons of fresh basil, chicken, and the dressing is apple cider vinegar, some balsamic vinegar, and avocado oil
Just being a nutrivore!
Enjoy your greens baby.