The End Is Near

Fact: the title of this is referring to me completing my holistic nutrition program and NOT readying myself for the worlds demise due to global warming, the election 2016, and instasnapchat. But the truth is, I am SO TIRED of completing case study after case study and it’s 5 am so I’m going to try to write about something other holistic nutrition to motivate my butt for the last leg of this program.

Not that I don’t enjoy writing about holistic health, like duh it’s my passion. Even if I DID choose to do a full-time program shortly after moving to a new city, attempting to work full-time hours at a hospital, ending a relationship, close friends ending their relationship with me, moving TWICE, family drama (can’t avoid), and probably a lot more to boot.

The truth is, the last, lets say 6 weeks, I have been completely off my game and acting a little hypocritical. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love boating and am so glad I got the chance to boat as much as I did this summer (and I’m sure more to come). But when it’s 2 pm, you get invited boating, you pick up some coolers because you don’t like beer and drinking wine is weird on a boat… (although I made it happen more than once) but you’re likely to… get intoxicated. Which leads to more destructive behaviour such as poor food choices as well as major loss of productivity, and a wicked hangover the next day. Not to mention exercising is completely out of the question. A part of me also didn’t want to deal with my day to day stressors (as mentioned above), so boating/going out/shopping was an easy answer to forget my problems, my to-do list, and my goals. There was always “tomorrow”.

So now I’m 17 days away. I’ve spent more hours in the library the last few days than July in general. Whether the pressure has got to me or I’m just being awesome (confidence not cockiness) but I am actually so excited to write this exam, and I know I can finish my case studies and prepare in time. Why? How? “Just say NO”. But seriously, I literally have to tell people no before anyone asks me to hang out. And no, I’m not miss popular, but I do have friends, live in the most beautiful place in the world with endless activities, and lets be honest I’ve been on tinder, and people want to take me out for coffee. Ahem “coffee.”

I have signed up for a month of Moksha, as I have always felt daily practice has grounded me and kept me level headed. I have also tried implementing meditation daily, even if it’s just for a few minutes. A lot of my stress and irritability can be attributed to how I perceive the situation. But at the end of the day I am completely in control of my outcomes. It’s as if I was playing the victim, but I was the perpetrator to begin with. I am also focusing back on my nutrition, as I think I went 3 weeks buying food for every meal. That gets expensive AND is unhealthy. When truly, I am passionate about cooking and preparing my food, as it’s a relaxing activity and I love knowing I am nourishing myself.

So without further adew (adoo?) seriously how do you spell that word. Oh great now I’m thinking of the next line being “I now pronounce you husband and wife” and here I am wondering whether or not Marlow is at home missing me. Marlow’s my cat but that’s obvious. Anyways, 17 days left to power through. Sorry if I come across as a bitch, it’s not because I’m being selfish it’s because I am being EXTREMELY SELFISH and only thinking about myself right now.



Here’s my superfood smoothie I’ve been making FYI. So good.

Superfood Smoothie
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  • One cup mixed berries
  • 2 T hemp protein powder
  • 2 tsp tripow greens (chlorella and spirulina)
  • 2 tsp maca powder
  • 3 T PB2
  • 2 tsp gelatin
  • 1 T cacao nibs
  • 1 T coconut ribbons
  • 1 T omega crunch flax seeds
  • Sprinkle of pumpkin seeds or other nuts and seeds
  1. Blend berries, and powders in blender with water.
  2. Top with the rest of the ingredients.
  3. Did I really need to write instructions?

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